For my final project post I’m going to talk about a few things. I am going to talk about how I’ve been knocked down, but got back up. I am also going to be talking about how this crazy life works in certain ways for me.

My life, if I am going to be completely honest, hasn’t been sunshine and rainbows. As you already know I was severely bullied growing up, and I suffered a major loss as a kid. But, I also struggle in many other ways too.

For me, I have my days where the absolute last thing I want to do is get up out of bed. No, not because I’m to comfy or I want to sleep more, but because that can be the hardest part of my day. But, I do it, I get up and get ready. Many people think that it’s because my parents make me. When in reality it’s because even tho I don’t have the drive to, I still fight the thing holding me back.

We all have our demons, but some of them never leave. You honestly just have to find a way to block them out. Yes, they will sneak through that barrier and times will be tough, but it’s all about how strong you mentally are to lock them back up again, instead of letting them take over.

I haven’t had it easy by any means. I mentally beat myself up everyday. People may never see it, because I don’t let them, but it doesn’t mean it’s not happening. But do I let it stop me? No, I put on a brave face and just keep going on with my life. I don’t do it because it’s fun, it’s because even tho things may seem good, to me it’s just a matter of how long. My insecurities get the best of me all the time.

Insecurities suck. No one can deny that. But one thing I’ve always done is, thought to myself “how can I make today a better day?” Or “how what can I do to put a positive approach on the negativity?” Yes, it is the hardest thing to do, and some days you can’t do it, but not trying at all is not trying to fix it.

I believe that life works in mysterious ways. That maybe all the bad things we endure are leading up to the amazing things. For me, being knocked down and having to face my demons in my head constantly, are all just a path leading me to this amazing happiness.

Yes, right now it sucks, it’s hard, and I may want to give up, but all of it is only making me stronger. It’s only setting me up and giving me lessons I can pass on as I get older.

Life sucks sometimes. It really truly does , but I’d rather fight against instead of sitting back just taking it. I’ve learned that no matter what, don’t give up. Don’t let those demons beat you. It’s probably the hardest thing you can do and some days you might really struggle in the fight, but it’s all worth it in the end.